Dear Me

You have such good friends around you willing to cheer you up. Its ok if you feel too tired and just do not want to talk about it anymore. And also please quit thinking it. 

I know you have tried very hard to keep this marriage going. And you do know that despite all that this going on you have put in your full 100% & love into this relationship. 

So forgive yourself for making mistakes along the way. Forgive yourself for loosing your cool & having a meltdown that day. Forgive yourself for making him feel sufferings when all you wanted was for you both to be happy again. Forgive yourself for your impatience. 

Wish with all your heart for the best of him. Its only kind that you let what you love go & be truly happy. Not that you dont matter. Of course you matter. But at this point, this is the very least you can do for him. The image of his happiness will keep you knowing that you did the right thing.